Do you ever concentrate so much on the future that you forget the good things about the present??

Its something I tend to struggle with because I am always looking ahead. Last night's post was completely looking forward to this weekend and I forgot to mention one of the high lights of my day.

So I will preface this by saying, "I have one of the best moms ever."

Since going to Italy last spring, I have had a slight obsession with Blood Orange... anything. Juice soda, the actual fruit. So yummy. Its sweet but its got a little bit of tart. Very very refreshing. So yesterday my mom bought me Ciao Bella Sorbet - Blood Orange. Umm, YUM!

And now I will love her forever.

Not a good day. I have had a headache all day and it has turned into a migraine. Dizziness and sensitivity and all.

HOWEVER, I have things to be excited about.

Thursday = Hair appt... and its summer, so I am thinking blonde.

Friday = Brooks and Dunn Last Rodeo tour concert with some favs. I always said that I had to see them before they stopped touring... way to procrastinate right?

Saturday = Beach! Until the Rays game... and after the Rays game... Dierks FREAKIN Bentley. Gahhh... I am sorry what, I will spare you the details of what I was thinking. ;-)

Sunday = R&R, hopefully on the beach again. =)

Its really still Monday??

As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.
- Emmanuel Teney

Oh my word, how I wish I felt that way these days...

If I had a time range for how long I would be stuck living at home, or a clue of where I was headed to next, I think I could cope a little better.

Or maybe if I trusted God a little more I wouldn't have to cope. I could just keep chasing hope... =)

I love my momma

Conversation with my dearest momma:

Me: I get the TV at 9 tonight, Glee is on... Its Lady Gaga night!

Momma: I don't like Lady Gaga

Me: I do, shes crazy...

Momma: She definitely is

Just a difference between me and my momma, she would rather have things be very mainstream. I like find obscurities and differences interesting.

Alright Gaga, maybe thats a bit much.

And Momma is pretty different in her own way, and by different, I mean crazy. But she's a woman... we all are a little bit crazy... But a little bit crazy's all right...

In my dreams

I had one of the most vivid dreams I have ever had in my life last night.

I was with the guy I am supposed to marry and we were so in love.

And I overheard him telling someone that he had a ring for me. And I remember saying his name in the dream and saying I couldn't wait to be his wife.

So if I ever meet some one with that name... I am probably gonna pee myself.

But I can't wait to meet that man.

I figured this was coming...

So I did not get into grad school.

=/

For now.

I have plenty of opportunities though and I am trying to keep my head up. Time to make some headway on these job apps.

Yay!

I just bought a food processor! I have been wanting one forever. So this is big. It wouldn't be for most people, but I try to find pleasure in the little things.

Homemade hummus', salsas, purees, dressings, and anything else I can figure out how to make.... here I come!!!!

=)

Peter pan

I loved what I read on my pastors blog today. He said in order to blog and keep blogging you either have to have insight into a lot of interesting things, or eat interesting things for breakfast to tell people about.

Well, my life is not that interesting. And I am rarely awake early enough to even eat breakfast. And so, this blog is neglected. I'm sorry blog.

Life is funny right now. College is an in between time. You don't have all the rules and such your parents - ahem, my parents (they were pretty strict and I am still convinced that I was the only high school senior to have an 11 o'clock curfew) - set forth and yet you are not forced into the monotonous routine of having a 9-5 job and having more responsibility than you know what to do with. (God help me, if I ever really have that)

When I started college my mom and I argued a lot about this in between time. I told her I didn't have to grow up yet and she said I had better start. (She had me at 18 and grew up quick in order to be the most awesomest mom I could ever ask for.) She finally accepted that her peter pan child will probably never really grow up all the way. (Hey, I am ok with it, shouldn't she be?)

Well I finished my undergrad in August, and I was technically supposed to be out of that buffer zone and into adult life. However, I wasn't ready. And plus, I still have to go to grad school for my chosen profession. So I get some play time until I am accepted into grad school???? Maybe not. Its time to grow up a little more. I am pretty done with my serving job. I got demoted from bartender (long, stupid story that should have never even happened) and as much as I am not ok with growing up, I am also not ok with going back a step. So, I am thinking that this is my time to step it up and get a big girl job. And so, I am freakin out. I am not ready for this. But, do I really wanna be thirty and still working in a chain restaurant? Absolutely not. Time to use that degree my parents helped me out with.

Let the application process begin.

There Mom, are you happy? Peter pan is leaving Neverland... But don't you worry, I know my way back. =P

"Find out who you are, and do it on purpose." - Dolly Parton

Who would think that such wisdom would come from a country singer with enormous tatas?? I love Dolly for making me think. 

I am...

No where near being engaged. But these past few months, that has been the trend among people I know. There was a weekend in late October that !3! different couples I knew got engaged - on the same night! In the past few weeks alone, I thinks the tally is up to about 7? I don't know what's in the water right now but its making everyone feel the need to get hitched. 

Now, don't get it twisted. I am absolutely thrilled for my friends who have found the one that they want to be with forever and ever, amen. However, I am afraid I am becoming apathetic towards the whole engagement thing. Maybe if we could spread the love out a bit, I would regain my love of engagements and rushing to see the pretty sparkly ring on my friends hands... right.. who am I kidding? Even if I am tired of engagements, I still wanna see the ring! 

Congrats to all my friends!!!